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The Modern One, I was a fool,

The Heartless One, I was your tool,

The Sunless One, I could be light ...

I am yet again alone in night.

You are the child of this age,

I am an ancient, ageless sage,

You are the youth in ages gold,

I am immortal, very old.

Behind my steps - the thousand lives,

Behind success - the thousand tries,

Behind my wings - the thousand dreams ...

I have redeemed own sins.

I am a star in darkest night

And for myself I'm own guide,

You are reflection, shining deep,

You have no wings, you like to creep,

You like to feed on own lacks -

The child, full of epoch's bracks,

I would prefer to leave you, rather,

There is no fate for us together.

You are the victim of your age,

But time will break this golden cage,

And time will teach you how to play

With love of other, who’s your prey.

With time you'll die in mind of mine,

The time will help me not to pine,

The time will be life's own sage,

For I was born in the wrong age.

So yet again I am behind,

I am victim of my own mind,

The time will help my heart unfreeze.

There is no one.

... Or is there is ?

As time pass on the body dies,

There are no ways to stop its cries,

The fate will once stop rolling dice

And past will measure pain's size.

The past is painful, future's dark,

The fate decides well whom to mark,

That mark is curse and not a gift,

Its pressure one will never lift.

May it be called a Divine Hell !

You will not stop my holy gall,

I will return you bits of pain

And in its waters you I'll sain !

I swear that you shall soon feel

That I do have my own will,

And I wish stepping own way

To all your plans I could say "nay" !

…But since the god is long no more,

There is no one to blame for gore,

There is no one to judge for pain

And all the pleads will be in vain.

It matters not if I survive -

Myself of curse I will deprive,

To find the painless way to sky ...

The price for wings is truly high.

As time pass on the body dies

To free the spirit way to rise,

It is the nature of that tolling

That makes the dice of fate keep rolling.

All I feel now is the pain,

All my hopes were but in vain,

And there is no one to blame...

Damn it, have I gone insane ?!

Will this be all just the same,

Am I but a soul lame,

Cursed to be left alone

With no love, no hope, all prone?

If I'm such a foul man -

Then ignore me when you can,

Never giving any hope,

Never leaving me to mope !

Oh, my girl, but you insist...

Yes, I’m able to resist,

Yes, I may not surrender...

Will that help, I truly wonder?

Oh, I can bury my feeling

And become the coldest being,

"Normal" man without heart,

Yes, I can resist you, but ...

You will drop me soon enough

Just to find the man that's tough -

One, that's able to resist,

One, whose heart will never twist.

Trust me, I am used to this,

I do have to pay my fees

All in hope to find one day

Only one, who won't say "nay",

Only one, chosen for me...

I will find her, you'll see !

But for now I won't resist,

Have some pleasure, at the least...

People all walk strangest ways,

Passing by without trace,

Hoping to find love one day

And forget to say theirs "nay"...

It was the time of retribution,

Of thoughts all dying in confusion,

It was one coldest winter day

When sun had moved off the way.

There is no hope for it to come

And all illusions are now gone,

The only thought that's left to pry

Is endless question - "Why ? Why ? Why ?!"

Why to ignore without answer ?

Why hiding soul in the panzer ?

Ignored ones now maybe few...

Some day they’ll start ignoring you.

Why to give hope ? There is no reason

If you believe it to be treason,

If heart belongs to other man

Then answer "no" - that's better than !

Why to keep silence when one "no" -

And hope will die without grow,

And I won't ever bother you...

Ignored ones ... are they but few ?

I will not be that "spare haven" !

On death won't feast like bloody raven,

I'll find another, truly sun...

I am again in the run.

The time will pass, I will forget

Of winter sun that made me sad,

Of heatless sun that did but hide

And disappeared from the sight.

And as for you, I will that tell -

I'll say : "Goodbye.

Fare

Thee

Well."

Who is the one to do things right,

Who has the perfect future's sight

And who has will to gain these ?

Those ones who have - stand by now, please.

No one believes he can be wrong

Like weakling dreams that he is strong,

Like loony states that he's all right -

Just all the others aren't bright.

Like that it's normal to believe

That lonely men are always stiff,

Divorced women are the stinkers …

Yet all of us considered thinkers.

Oh man, it's common to believe

That death is the eternal grief,

That life is such an endless race

With wildly rising-dropping pace,

That one should never be alone,

That happy days already gone,

And world will never be all right -

Cause all the others aren't bright.

And it's all known we possess

The right to make some constant mess,

We call it "freedom" by the way...

That inborn right to fray and pray.

I

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